What's on my heart

Kirk is does concern me that you have many relationships that are close with women, and kinda seems like you always have. I'm not saying that you shouldnt be friendly to people. But I also believe that there's a friendship line that shouldn't be crossed with the opposite sex. I don't have anything against ms hood at all. It's more about the future.. If you don't see how a closer friendship with the opposite sex couple be potentially dangerous then that's what concerns me.. Yeah you have a concerning heart.. But I believe you also setting yourself up for temptation.. that's why I don't feel comfortable with my husband have relationships like that- no matter the age or looks of the women. It worries be that you dont understand this cause i feel like ive been taught it my whole like amd seen truth in it in my own lofe.Emilys dad was "councilong" the ladie he had an affair with.. And it was him just trying to help at first, but he placed himself in that close friendship and temptation. No I'm not saying your like him but he is just an example.

What's on my heart

Love, i do love talking to you. And about God and Biblical truths. I really want to get better with how we communicate better with  eachother. sometimes I feel as though we never agree with anything said.. And we give our own opinions and from listening to you we don't agree, at least how that comes across. very rarely do i hear you agree with me. And I guess sometimes its just draining for me.. And sometimes scary.. And I start to not enjy it as much... sometimes its also sxary when your so extreme sometimes because if we were together I would have to follow whatever you feel we should do.. Following instead of listening.. And if your not also logical and thinkin with your mind that can be scary to think aboutSo anyways, just wanted to share what was on miss you heart. 

-E

Missed you love

                                                                           DAY 1

driving home from saying goodbye:/ trying to pull myself together to no one noticed i'd been crying

just finished a run with sarah- exhausted. 

going on a bike ride to bennetts:)

didn't have a donut.. i was good..

driving home to go to lunch with mom and sarah. wearing my seat belt for you. ;)

soo lonely...

i found your smell!!:)

just got out of the shower fixin to head to the tea room.

Jackson had tea too..

the tea room:)

lil girl with her dad having tea:) presh

scone

missing you prettty bad here.. was sitting at the tea room and almost started cryin:/

shopping with sweets

;)know how to made me smile

mmmm boyfriend how I miss you… this morning was real tough: / not gonna lie. I guess I thought I'd not be as bad as I am cause i new i would be busy.. buuuut that hasn't really helped: / Thinking of you very often. Was very tough talking to you on the phone when you called for the last time( which is why i couldn't talk beside mom and sarah). I missed and miss you terribly. Today ran and road bikes with sarah g. was really fun and felt good ot be active:) we need to do more active things now that I'm not gonna be super tired and grumpy all the time:) Sarah said she wanted to ride down to the beach so many we can work up to that:) Gonnabe working are to get in shape. Felt os much better today physically. then went to the tea room with mom sarah and Jackson. It was suppose to just be me and mom but sarah came down. Not that I don't love being with sarah and am thankful for when she's here, but tea room wasn't really the same cause we didn't really get to talk.. cause when Jacksons here he kinda just has everyone attention. Thats half the reason why I like the tea room cause it quaint and you can just talk and share whats on her heart and whats been goin on ect. Very hard for me to be writing you right now:/... cause I'm used to talking to you. but know Gods using you in a big way and teaching you a lot. after the tea room we went to a baby consignment store…. then to target and to see dad. then we came home and went to my uncle and cousins b-day party. just got home about 20 minutes ago (its 906 now). very tired tonight, and am longing for a hug from my boyfriend.   Hoping you made if there safely; no news from anybody is good news i guess right??  Going to read at least 2 chapters tonight. I'm in 2 Kings. wanted to read a lot more today and was looking forward to it, but didn't know sarah was coming down. mmm… bittersweet…. like you said.. I'm so incredible happy/exciting to see what Gods going ot teach you and do in your heart. but at the same time its very hard to be away from you for the first time… I'm headed to bed, 2nd to last day of school tomorrow. wha whaaaat!:) when your back; you will be dating a bsn graduate;) (bachelors in science nursing). missing you.. praying for you.. fighting for you..  

p.s. babe?? mmm not so much….. ;)

DAY 2

On my way to clinical.. lil tired if you cant tell. 

getting the run down..

nurse was 20 min late..

weather for today:/

tireddd

DAY 3

blehhhh

love boat with mom dad daniel and jack

talking to you on ICHAT:D

ohhhhhh boyfriend:) just got done talking with you and feel like im on cloud 9!:) lol i need to calm down a lil bit.. you are such a blessing in my life and bring so much joy. Was so amazing and powerful to hear you talk about your day and sharing the word with the children. Its very encouraging when men are so passionate about their faith. I think thats why God has called men to be the leaders in marriage relationships because when we girls see that we can't help but be encouraged and follow.(God knew what he was doing!). I'm like still smiling inside kirk lol. 

Today was a pretty good day. i was with a different nurse again today cause my nurse was charge. this nurse was better then the one yesterday tho; our personalities clicked a lil better. I have one alcoholic and drug addict. Patients like them are more difficult for me:/ because i like try to help them and give them my trust and benefit of the doubt and they just break it.. its like you can't really help them.. like they don't even know what they are saying. the alcoholic pooped and threw it everywhere.. and was going off about how his exgirlfriend put him in a container like the milk carton… and he had a feeling she was cheating on him so he followed her and sure enough.. and then 5 min after he was telling us all about his ex, his ex walking up looking for him. and it was like a big sope-opera.. i seriously felt like i was on the maury show or some reality tv show. and then the coc addict…. ugh… she would just yell and then call like the director of nursing about how the meeds we gave her made her throw up and all this stuff.  i dunno.. its just hard for me to help them and listen and be there for them for support and show them love. when they just yell at you and stuff and aren't with it. like do i just stand there for 5 min while they go off?; /.. 

I brought Carida the girl i told you about magazines today to look at. she seem like she was in a much better mood today which was good. 

it was kind of disappointing to not be done today:/ cause i guess i just had it in my brain I was done. and Very tired. whats new? lol:)13 hour days are just so long; and just running around the whole time is exhausting. Its hard not to complain and gossip at work.. I feel like thats all most of the nurses do. and I don't want to be like that..I don't want to have a negative attitude about my patients even if they are rude to me. and I still don't know where I want to work:)  I didn't run today cause i went to see patty for an hour after clinical. going to run tomorrow though. 

I miss you.. i just miss being around you. your presence. crystal was funny lol. she just messaged me and said she had a pic for me of you if i wanted to give her my number lol. so OF COURSE I was on that like ice cream. I've never met her and she was just messaging me lol just thought it was funny. not sure what the sticker said in the picture you were holding up tho? anywho, I'm headed to bed. its 12:12. gonna read a couple chapters and go to sleep. Won't be able to hear from you anymore ya said so hopefully you get your rest to you and serve to thebest of your ability. maybe todd might be able to post an update one day. no news it good news:) missing you.. fighting for you..praying for you..

DAY 4

on my way to church

at megans

taking patty to the airport

don't wanna run...

after run. felt good:)

ohhh love.. is it time for you to come home yet???.. poppy. i miss you. today church was really good. our classes were combined, which of course made me miss you even more.. steve taught on ephesians 4 and hor we the body need to be unified how had patience, love, humility, and gentlness. then russel howard taught on psms 23:6. was really good. Needed to hear the patiences and gentleness especially.. its been harder for me to demonstrate those qualities to certain patients to the level that I am called to. its very hard to do this because the nurses are very negative and are snappy with the patients sometimes (and in my flesh thats how i feel myself being if Christ wasn't in me) so because i'm around that its easier to fall into that.. and gossiping.. like crazy. after church i had lunch with beck and huffy. road with becky to meet up with patty meg and mason and rlaxed at megans till 6. then came home, ran, picked up my room a little bit, and am writing you now. I'm pretty tired:/ didn't get to rest today like i needed. but Gods good and always gives me enough strength tomake it throughout the day. hopefully you all made it safe to the jungles. last clinical day tomorrow, then bible study, then have to do my final packet thats due tomorrow too. so its going to be a long day tomorrow:/ i miss you boy. until tomorrow..

DAY 5

just finished precetorship!!!! woot woot!!!:) was pooring outside

DAY 6

my outfit today

shoppping

feeling not to hot:( puppy sitting iwth me

hi boyfriend. Today I woke up feeling pretty tired. Talking with mom a little the mooring and had breakfast then we went to tangier outlets and shopped a little bit. think she's probe tired of me asking " doing you miss kirk mom??" lol.. I was suppose to spend the day the megan today, but i started not feeling well as the day went on. So we rescheduled and I wrote my thank you notes, got them all done.. you would be proud.. then started on my paper for my final packet that I'm turning in tomorrow and just finished that.(9:15) but yeah.. im sick:/ should have known id be sick by now lol.. but at least it waited until after I was done w preceptorship:P Very thankful that Ive been able to lay low today and rest. I made my favorite teavanna tea:) puppy dog has been sitting with me all day. Mom got me a super cute jacket today; think you'll like it;) Fixing to get in the word and then take a shower. going to drop off my final packet to my professor tomorrow morning. see you soon:) nites. 

                                                                          DAY 7

fixing to drive to the college:)

just turned in my final packet!!!!!!:) collage grad;)

choc rocks are my fav at yogurt mt

letter from holly to you

on my way to metro... how i look when my bf isn't around... lol

hello boyfriend! today was a chill day. I rested most of the day because i wasn't feline good yesterday. this morning i woke up and finished my paper and the mom and i drove out to fgcu for the LAST time (woo woo!) and turned in my packet. talked to my professor a little bit and she said i should take my nclex like the last week in august..  gotta write down my study plan soon to get started studying.. bleb. talked to nurse sarah yesterday and she failed the nclex:/ anywho, then mom and i went to the diamond district.. pretty dangerous place… she needed to get her ring fixed. then we did some lil shopping and got moes and yogurt mountain. when then came home and i read. kinda just felt like i wanted to read so i didn't go to focus:/, read instead. theres some crazy stuff in 2 kings.. lol. then i took a shower and went to metro. was barely anyone there:/ talked to mrs vicki and she said she's talk to cary every dayyyy!!… WHATS UP WITH THAT!?!? lol.. jk.. but she did really say that. and i was a lil a lot jealous lol. jeff spoke and did a good job. can tell you about it later. i'm tired:/ and gonna read a go to bed:P miss you lots!! nite

DAY 8

cleaning out my room... list i madea while ago of what i want in a guy.. lol

jacksons tryin out new food..

going ot lunch:)

jackson wanted his own cupcake..

uhhhh lovvvvveeeeee… you KILLEDDDDDD me tonightttttt!…. i was helping my mom when you called pack and pick out outfits for boston. ugh i felt like someone stabbed me lol.. blehhhhh. welllll today was good. I cleaned my room out all morning.. went through some old stuff and threw some old boyfriend boxes away.. lol sure your happy with that haha. crazy how much ive grown since then… then went out to lunch with sarah and mom and shopped a lil. then came home and worked on some stuff. then went to coffee with megan and ran with sarah g. then came home and played with jackson and helped mom pack. I miss  youuuu love. and cant wait to see you and hug yyouuuu big time. going to read right now and head to bed. Did i mention i like you? and miss you? and cant wait to see you? well i do… ;) your my fav. nights

DAY 9

after running we walked down to the river to cool off

you called and I missed it:(.....

boots mom got me for a birthday present :) don't get them yet:(

LAST DAY!

yeah your gf can cook... ;)

finished product:)

ohhh boyfriend your coming come in 10 hours!!!!:D can't wait cant wait to hug you!:) well... i shaved for you tonight... ;) so youll be happy. :P woke up at 8 and took care of puppy cause mom and dad left today. then worked out wIth sarah and she killed me.. lol we ran at a 8 min pace... so i was dead. then we went to subway for breafast and to publix to get stuff for lasanga that i made the girls tonight. the i came come and worked on your blog a lil bit. then i met up with kaylee and joy to take joy to the airport- flew intown today. then had lunch with kaylee. then went thrift shopping with sarah. then came come and started cooking. i set me stove on fire... lol you can ask me about it.. then some girls came over and we did a craft/ movie night. then denise and amy came over late and they just left (11:30).showed them my scrap book;) so I'm worn out! gonna read a chapter and go to sleep. i miss you and can't wait to see you!! call me when your back:) like you boy!